I have been Bipolar for 5 years now I have tried to commit suicide over a hundred times. most people dont realize how terrifying it is to go through these episodes. None of my family understand me, no one in my life knows what is going on.I dont have any one to talk to. I have a bipolar friend that commited suicide last week, and it really hits home. Please understand we are normal people that cant stop our mind from tearing us apart. i know what happens to me but when i get like that i cant stop, i push everyone away till there is nothing left but me and my mind. and the end result is usually the same. im not proud of who i am, im not proud of destroying my family. this disease eats at the very core of the human mind, disguised as the truth u think that the only way to make things better for everyone is to close you eyes one final time. Everyday i go through pain, everyday i suffer just a little more.if you have a loved one that is like this pay attention to them, watch them, talk to them, try to understand what they are feeling. as for stopping the death rate of our people, it will not and can not happen, there is a chosen few that can get by. but the reality to this is we are in pain and suffering inside our minds, medication only covers up who we are, and prolongs our suffering. God help us..........