I'm scared...my biggest fear is I won't be able to have a baby. I'm pro adoption and surrogates and everything like that for other people...but I want to be able to carry my baby. I want to be able to have a creation of my fiance and I. I'm young yet, and have constantly been worrying about this since the age of 16. I've had blood tests and ultrasounds. The only thing they can find wrong is my estrogen is low. I have been put on 3 different types of b/c. The first one knocked me flat and made me sick!! I was on it for 3 months and got off of it..I got on the nuvaring, and it was so uncomfortable I couldn't stand it, then I got on the low form of b/c and I was having breakthrough bleeding every month, so instead of one period I was having 2! I was miserable, so I got off of all birth control. Every type gave me a period, but now that I'm not taking it, I haven't gotten a period. I debated whether or not I was pregnant because I'm having all the symptoms, but every pregnancy test I've taken is negative. The only thing wrong is my low estrogen, I have no cysts or dysfunctions that I know of. I want a child of my own in the future so bad, and to feel normal. I'm so tired of hearing it from friends and family. "You're so lucky!" Ugh, I would give anything to know I could get pregnant by one attempt. The one thing that I really can't understand is, the people that deserve and would make great mommy's can't have them and the ones that don't need them, abuse them, can have them...I guess I'm just emotionally depressed about all of this, can anyone please discuss with me..no doctor has told me I can't have kids, but by reading these posts its causing me to get a little more worried! :(