Hi Amanda and Jenny my name is Amber and I am 27 years old. I also had an ectopic pregnancy last year. My husband and I had been trying for a long time for a baby and I was devastated when I found out it was an ectopic. I had methotrexate twice and it didn't work, my tube erupted and I had surgery in late March to remove it. I also couldn't watch baby commercials and seeing pregnant women would make me burst into tears. It seemed everyone else was pregnant but me. I also felt like no one understood what I was going through. To be left with one tube and people saying it wasn't meant to be was like a slap in the face. I managed to get pregnant again on November 1st and this pregnancy is healthy and normal so far. I'm very happy and it eases my pain but it does not make up for the one that I lost. I wish you both the best and hope this year brings us all better luck.

Hi Amanda (and ladies) I went through the same thing last week. My tube also had to be removed because it ruptured. It's interesting (for lack of better words) that you were having nightmares because I was too. I normally get really bad nightmares but of course this time they were baby related. I dreamed that a 'grim reaper' like woman was staring at my baby through the window from outside my house. I told one person but downplayed because I feel like I cant show anyone the truth about how I'm feeling. I come from a family of strong women and I too am strong. I have a 5 yr old son that i raised alone from day one. First time mom spending her first night home from the hospital alone. But I'm just that strong. For some reason, this is all too much for me. As I was having a convo about it earlier I felt really dizzy because its just all too overwhelming for me. I'm scared to death that I wont be able to have another normal pregnancy.
I'm sorry you are all going through this.

Hi girls,
I also had ectopic pregnancy and went through laparoscopy last month. At first, I felt pain in the pervic region, it was uncomfortable to use the restroom or sit (classic symptoms). Two days later I bled a lot, more than regular period. I waited 4 more days to to the utlrasound and the doctor urged me to go to the emergency room on the same day. It happened so quickly, I didn’t even know how to deal with all of it. I had a nervous breakdown right before they took me into the operating room. All of my fears just came down on me at once. The only thing I was trying to do is become a mommy. And I know, that I will be the best mommy to my child, I will love my baby, and cherish, and praise, and discipline of course. It’s been my dream for several years to have a child with my husband, and there I was on the bed waiting for my pregnancy and my bursted right tube to be removed. Oh well, life threw a challenge but I knew that I can’t dwell on it and become depressed. Although, first couple of days after surgery were difficult. I had to take medication cause I couldn’t fall asleep. And whenever I felt pain, I would become very anxious and think about my fertility (or infertility). In one dream, I saw pregnant woman and it seemed she was there all throughout the night. I woke up in agony, felt tired. Instead of getting my rest, I was reminded about my problem. But I learned not to let the anxity twist me.
Two weeks after the surgery I went to see my Dr. He gave me green light to start excercising and I went back to my workouts. I started feeling like myself again. Ladies, my advice to everyone, find a fun activity and stay fit. I discovered Zumba, found a great teacher who has lots of fun music. The workout felt like a Saturday night party. It elevated my mood and I just loved dancing.
After sharing my story with some of my female friends, I learned that my aunt and another girl had ectopic. They were able to have a child next year. There is hope!!
Moreover, I agree with other members that is very difficult to go to malls and shopping centers. It feels like you are crippled women among a baby La La Land. I couldn’t help but stare at pregnant women, look at their bumps, and felt sad.
Hope this post helps other women. Don’t give up on your dream, stay positive. Prepare and be ready to pay close attention to your health. I hope everything will work out in the best way possible!!