Hello, I am so happy to have found this group. It has been a little hard finding the right information regarding ectopic pregnancys, My hospital gave me a brochure on miscarriages some how i think the two are slightly different! I hope that by sharing my story I can help others and my self to understand and get through this difficult time a little easier. I am 28years old and have just had my right tube removed due to an ectopic pregnancy. I found out I was pregnant and was over joyed, I was about 6-8 weeks and I started to get a light brownish coloured discharge, this alarmed me enough to have an ultra-sound. They found my baby in my right tube, but due to the size and absence of a heart beat. I was eligible for a methotrexate injection, exactly two weeks after the injection I woke in severe pain and was rushed to the hospital. Just knowing that there was a lot of pain and show of a slight bleed in the ultra sound they decided to operate. Going through my belly button firstly, they found I had alot of old blood around my tube and decided to take the tube. They then opened my up on my tummy, like the same as a C-section surgery, while assessing the tube they turned it over to see were the bleed was coming from, once they turned the tube over I started to bleed fast and lost 1.5 litres of blood. They took the tube, and my supposed half hour surgery took 3.5hrs. I had to get a blood transfusion. They believe that the methotrexate started to work and as everything started to break down the baby moved in the tube tearing it as it fell. My first week spent in hospital I was in allot of pain. last week I had my stiches taken out. And was still very bruised and this week on Tuesday it will be two weeks post op, and my tummy between my belly button and my scar is still swollen and feels bruised. and If I am up out of bed too much I get twitching on and off pains through out my belly and were my ovary’s would be, and on and off on my right side as well. I am assuming this is all part of the body healing its self, but is still so scary!!! I am still sleepy alot and I have also started to get quiet anxious and had a panic attack when I was left at home by my self. I think I am still very scared and the reality of how close I came to potentially loosing my life is setting in. How do I overcome this panic? I feel so lost and was wondering if anyone else also started to experience anxiety as a result of this dreadful loss and procedure? I just wish I knew what was normal and to expect. This was my first pregnancy and it took me 8months to conceive. So as well as trying to overcome the grief I am trying to heal physically, so every little pain and twitch I am worrying my self silly how did you over come the shock and grief? I have been writing alot and trying to stay as positive as possible, half of me just wants all of this healing to hurry up so I can start trying for a baby again :D